Advise From a Guy

So, during brunch yesterday with Walker, somehow we stumbled on the conversation about who we like or more towards who I like. Even though I'm pretty positive that Walker wasn't/isn't the best guy to be getting relationship advise from he is well a guy so I kept it simple, didn't mention any names, and well asked him solely because he is a GUY! I asked and he listened, thought and responded. My questions really were simple like "If a girl liked you would you want her to tell you?" or "Do guys want as to be a "chase" or simply be tangable?" even "If a girl were to tell you she likes you how would you want her to tell you?". Simple as that, he answered all of my questions, (don't worry he would respond by saying Adam's name, so he knew who I was refering to. He wasn't thinking I like him(Walker). Anyways something that he said really struck me as good advise, "...If he isn't initiating anything he's probably not interested... although he could be shy around girls he likes even though he doesn't seem like he would be, but he easily could be shy". Walker also quoted the speaker from chapel on Friday she said, "You are significant with or without another." Her whole reason for saying that is because in this world, and in our culture it is very uncommon to not be engaged or married, but if your purpose for engagement and marriage is to have a social status then you are in it for all the wrong reasons. Love is to special and important to waste for status. So, "You are significant with or without another" really puts in perspective on how God looks at us with or without a significant other.

Today, being a typical Monday, I went to class, walked to chapel, saw Adam and talked with him for awhile, later in the day get text saying "it's One Tree Hill night and I still have your plate come over" so around 9 go to Adam & Karl's apartment watch OTH and hangout. So, taking Walker's advise from yesterday, that Adam's probably just not interested, this made me utterly confused! Adam came and sat down super close to me, was totally flirting with me, he was even interested in what's been going on in my life. AGH! Right when I was trying not to like him, right when I was set on nothing happening between us, right when I was just going to be friends; he starts the whole process over again.

I really wish I can say that I'm over him, I wish that I can only see him as a friend, but why is it right when I decide that it just isn't meant to be he starts to initiate things?

I'm back to where I started CONFUSED. I really think that he's not worth all of this thought and confusion, this game, and this frustration.

Quote Of The Day

When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'." I'm whispering "I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.
When Isay... "I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that that I'm weak and need his strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are far too visible but, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches so I call upon his name.
When I say "I am a Christian" I'm not holier than thou, I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow!

--Maya Angelou--

Only a Week? Really?

So I have officially been living here for a little over a week actually closer to 2 weeks. It's been a crazy week too! Let's see, well I moved in last Friday and had no electricity until Wednesday. I had to register for classes on Tuesday when classes started Wednesday, so I didn't get all of the classes I would have liked to be in and at what time. Oh well, I'm enjoying the classes that I'm in so that's what matters right? Adam and Karl live diagonally and across the lawn from my apartment. Adam is a whole different story that I'll get into a little bit later. I've been living on my own and today I found out that a girl who also lives in my court but with 4 roommates has been approved to move in with me! YAY I get a ROOMIE!!! I've made quite a few friends some who are commuters and some who live in my court who are also transfers. Also, my bestest friend in the whole wide wolrd since 4th grade is going to fly out and visit me in October! So much has happened I just can't think of it all... sorry.

So you open my front door and this is what you see. My living room.

My Dining Area.

My Kitchen.

Half of my bedroom.



That is a brief tour of my apartment I left out my desk and the bathroom... oh well!

I went to buy some of my books today, which my luck was only 2 of the 7 books were in stock, but the bookstore did have this super cute backpack and camp pretty much distroyed my backpack trust me it has seen better days! So, I bought a new backpack and it's really nice, it has a special pocket for sunglasses, and a insulated pocket to put cold sodas in... and it can carry my laptop which is what I need since all my classes allow them.

Isn't she a beaut?

Now for Adam. Well, I didn't really see him in the beginning of moving down here but lately I've been seeing him around more, and not like passing him on my way to class its like stopping by my apartment to hang out. But, I still have no clue what we are... if we are anything...